I’m never coming back again!

I am a little girl from top of the hill

‘All the worlds’ love is for me’, said my mama

For I am the only blessing they have

I had never known, a day of loneliness

For I was safe and sound in the nest of care

i was the luckiest girl, In all the kingdom I have known?

Once came a clad riding from down the hill

Spelled a charm from his eyes

I left my abode, to join a new life’s journey

‘Goodbye mama’, will I ever see you hold me again?

One day I opened my eyes, to see a vast desert

Where have I landed?  In the land of no water

The more I walk, the further I sink

The charmer had disappeared

For whom I left the world behind

Now here I am

Searching for life’s oasis….

‘Mama’, I’m never coming back again!

Another love story..

Those days… where have they gone?

Those beautiful long drives in the night, with a hint of romance.  Scared to go home late, feeling bad to leave this enchanting moment.

Tastiest biryani’s and all new experiment in every restaurant we could walk into, we would talk, talk and talk as if the world will end tomorrow and that excitement in which we would share things as and when it happened. I would always start with “you know whatttttt….”

Every Sunday Bangalore would be most profitable coz we bought n number of fruit juice, snacks, biryanis, movies and shopping.

Those movies we saw, did we even know we went for the sake of watching? I would not answer that question. Popcorns we had.. We have spilled more pop corn than actually ate. It was like we would go to movies only for intervals and popcorn

Those fights we had… the fight will be of the silliest reason but to resolve it would take hours and hours through night and day and I believe the telecom companies profit at this single aspect on their earnings.

Online 24/7 was the kind of relationship.. And not sharing the simplest thing for the day is a sin in both the cases.

A flower will bring smiles; a chocolate will bring giggles and love. A ‘love you’ brings the meaning for that day’s living.

A small trip will mean freedom, being kids again, understanding life more together, giving those small gifts to say Christmas is all year.

The name on the phone screen flashes ‘calling’ and my heart would pound fast, smile on my lips and ‘off’ goes the current world out of sight. When it’s U its only U and nobody or nothing else is first.

When we tried to lie parents, the innocence, the fear of getting caught … how bad can it get to be today?

Travelling city to city for each other, one holiday is all we need to dream to see each other, to keep reminding ourselves on things to talk and share.

Feelings of sadness every time we have to leave, when again would we meet again to talk, to share, to fight ?

Life was not at all fair for those limited mobile balances, time restriction to talk, limited time to spend with each other.

We would dream about staying together as a family, it would seem like a princess story and ending happily ever after. We wanted to belong to that fairy tale.

And today I sit and remember all those moments, OH GOSH! It was a wonderful part of my life and I never get to live like that again.

Who said its only college days that we miss later in life, these initial beautiful days of love also never come again even if you end up marrying the same person.

What is life today?

Work 24/7, phone calls only to inform ‘I will be late’, go out only if only any occasion calls for it, going out for a movie is no more for fun or pop corn it’s now a calendar event, when was the last time I heard someone loves me?, I am the reason for airtel’s losses, now fights are very short coz we are getting late for office, now flowers come only if ordered for somebody’s occasion, birthdays become ‘oh I have to buy some gift’ kind of an event, anniversaries become ‘here comes another expense’ kind of obligation, pick up and drop facility now passed on to auto bhaiyyas and meru uncles, not keeping well is now ‘you can manage right?’…

Why do we have to dream? Why do we need to fight the world for it? Why do we get all that happiness when being in love and been loved? Why does that go away so fast? Will it ever come back again? Or is it all lost like those old college days?

We all need answers, answers to our own hearts….

One lakh islands - Lakshadweep

I can still feel the gush of winds and hear the waves of green-blue Ocean. There are no words to complete anybody’s imagination. After this little gyan let me present to you the subject of talk here- “Lakshadweep” which means a one lakh islands, OMG! What a place.. I have not travelled abroad to say this is the best that is in the world, but I can definitely say this place is the best that I have seen be it from my eyes, pictures, movies or anything.

Let me describe you about this heaven, it was a dream come true for me as I had been thinking of this place from 4 years now. And finally I get the chance to actually be there. First of all its not a commercial tourist place so there are no much travel options from Bangalore except through air, so me and my hubby set off from Bangalore to Agatti – which is the only island in Lakshadweep with airport and when we landed we saw a thin strip of land which is one end of the island and we saw both ends of water.

The scenic view from airplane is the most exotic piece of picture I have ever seen. The green blue waters like you have found a piece of jewel in the middle of an ocean, like you are stranded and find this piece of land to breath.

You must have seen a lot of movies where people get lost and land up in an uninhibited island- I got the same feeling. We stayed in a small cottage with the wind pushing in my face 24/7 like it was reminding its presence every second, like it’s the messenger to inform beforehand about the mighty ocean.

As I stood at the walkway bridge towards the sea, I saw eternity. The waters had its language to speak; the silver fishes swam against the green water, a dozen big and beautiful turtles would float on the surface with their yellow neck popping up for air, the jelly fishes innocently float away, the fishermen would try hard on their luck from the infinite waters, the sunsets so tranquil, the underwater had a billion creatures living thinking it was still like the beginning of the world.

As the night set its tent pitch dark, the quick crabs would play around like it’s their world now. Its darkness, invisible waves, nocturnal world and peace at my heart.

People living her would smile at no matter who you are, their eyes so innocent like human, like purity, like truth. I believe some angels guard this treasure island.

I wish I belong here - to the creation, the nature, the truth, the sand and water, the beginning and the end.

Love- Its complicated!

The concept of love is such a complicated thing… how did our parents manage to get through this complication over so many years?

We see someone, we are attracted, we speak and we understand. This is the person we want to live a life with forever and ever happily…

HAPPILY??? Now that’s a big question mark.

Do love stories ever get solved? Is break-up the only solution if its not working out? To get to the topic of not working out in love what actually goes wrong?

It’s all lovely in the initial stages of love, angels dance in day dreams, you start hearing to your heart beats, every beautiful thing makes you smile, and you feel lighter than a bird. These being very common symptoms you go through this beautiful thing called love, and there comes a next stage of compatibility and understanding.

What happens here? Slowly you start noticing every activity of your partner- what he/she does? Who are his/her friends? And every possible thing about you partner.

There are some things that make you uncomfortable about your partner and same is your partner’s case.

Now, come on! Is there something called made for you- personalised piece in this world? How can you even dream about such a thing, you have not ordered a personalized laptop for goodness sakes!

You have just found yourself another soul like you with a different mind, different thinking, different habits, and different views about life…. In two words a different personality.

Basic facts about relationship for which you do not need to read this novel “men are from mars, women are from Venus” (I didn’t read either)

Your partner remembering your birthday, Valentine’s Day, wedding anniversary and etc days is not compulsory. If he/she is out of station calling you or even informing that he/she is alive is not mandatory Your partner is not on any obligation to know if you had food, slept well, looking good in your new dress, new hairstyle… and a lot of such little cute things.

You need to think twice while speaking to people around you, But be very broadminded if it comes to your partner, let him/her have his own way of prioritizing people.

Make sure you have your own hobby options active like reading novels, watching movies, painting etc. because you need them when u do not have the attention or company you expect from your partner.

I can go on, but considering your patience levels to read the same I am stopping at this. So this is what you need to be trained with to have a perfect relationship going on with zero fights. (ok please do not attempt to find my address or number to get to warn me about stopping such torturous facts to be published in this blog)

Alrite! Alrite! Alrite! Alrite! Now to the actual facts, I am as confused as you are as a reader about “ what is the perfect recipe for love?” well, there is none.

Everyone needs to find their own success recipes in their own way. Please do not purchase stuff like “how to fall in love” “how to sustain in love” how to understand your spouse”.

Coz what’s in a book is a person’s view; it’s his/her point of getting solutions in a relationship. What is your story? What is your expectation? And what is your partner’s? Understand, talk, love, feel, tell …. And then find a solution yourself.

If I can teach you how to love, will this mean I know your partner better?

Love exists, it does. Believe it, feel it. If you still don’t, remember that there is a lifetime to know you and your love, but not believing it can erase everything at this single moment.

Now you are forced to read a little note which i might call a poem.. (love:what all it makes you do!)

Does this happen to love?

Once upon a time a prince rode on the flying horse

Who came from high above the skies

To seek my hand into life

My eyes closed, I stepped ahead of my heart.

Took a vow for the love of my life
My eyes had a billion dreams inside

I dreamt they would unfold in every moment as I step

I am still thinking my hand is in yours

As I am with you leaving my world behind me

I trusted your hand more than my life

I believed in you more than my heart

And If I had to wake up one fine morning

To find all this was a dream,

I would want To sleep forever…

Vibha

(Did i hear an applause? or did you click on something to block my blog?)

I am back!

Hi folks, I know you must have missed me for long now, I just took a break to renew my skills and my ways of communication. Now I know you won’t buy such bullshit, so the fact is I got married and took a year’s break on blogging.

Life has changed a sea after this licensed live-in relation arrangement was done. Had I been a spinster I would have cribbed to have been married, now that I am married I miss the days where there were no rules to my mind. Is it that I am having a tough time coping with a husband material? Not at all.. He is not a husband, he is a rollercoaster. No! Guys, no imaginations on this quote.

I have all the freedom I need, all the permissions required, I need not behave wifey, I need not think for being what I want to be. Then WTF is the problem?

Ok here is a preliminary analysis of the problem I am undergoing. It’s a new law of physics or whatever subject this might fit in to, that when u have something which is what you always wanted, you no longer wish for it. Which is you no longer appreciate that it’s a big thing. Like example I had a lot of restrictions of being the only daughter about things like

Early to home policy,

No movie with friends policy,

No coloring hair policy,

Any salon treatment needs pre approval,

Dress measurements should be a size bigger than you actually are,

Now for all the policies above I wished I had FREEDOM! Now off course I have it. tons and tons of freedom (like I measured it).

Should I not be the happiest wife in the whole world? Haaa there is the catch, now I have freedom so what’s next? Now that is life, just because you wanted something so badly and you get it, your life does not stop at that. What is the next big thing you want is the way of thought. Life would become stagnant if we had everything we want, its like we finished our life in here so lets move to the next world.

The day you have got everything you ever wanted you wil look horrible with wrinkles, not a drop of energy even to think about what you want next. That’s when the invisible world decides ‘alrite pack your bags and disappear’. And then probably you are born again somewhere to learn again, think again, wish again, live again. so, dont stop dreaming...

Ok guys come back, I’ll talk about more such crazy things.